Contemplation

That's what I've been doing for the better part of a year now; contemplating life.  The person I used to be, the person I am, the person I am becoming.  How the world sees me, or doesn't see me, and how I see myself.  There are many big questions I've been seeking answers too, and as life usually does, it provides those answers in a way that is totally unexpected.  Even in a week-by-week fashion I've been totally surprised by what comes my way as long as I keep an open mind and a positive attitude.

So getting down to it, this past year has been dedicated to personal growth.  Involving myself in things that I was once too afraid to consider, pushing myself way outside of my comfort zone, and most importantly, stepping up to the plate when the time comes to preform.

I was once so afraid to take charge of anything, always looking to others for guidance and reenforcement, but I've discovered that I have an innate sense of what I should do to accomplish my goals.  It was burried inside of me all this time, and it wasn't until I found reason to trust myself that I realized that.

My biggest gateway has been photography.  I've always been in awe of the pictures on the covers of National Geographic.  I'm simply amazed at the lefel of detail, emotion and wonder that they convey.  Maybe it's partially that yellow frame, but the photos have always felt beyond me.  As if some super-human with a super-camera was taking the photos.  But something kept happening to me this summer.  I started to focus on what I was doing in both capture stage abd editing.  And as I posted my photographs on instagram, poeple started following me.  The significance of this is that my new followers were those who I consider to be those super-humans.  The people who continuously inspire me are themselves inspired by my work.  If that isn't some level of success, I don't know what is.